im sorry i sort of wanted this to be an ask but i guess you can just delete this and reply to me seperately (i went over the character limit)
i know you get a lot of these, but i think i might have ocd. i didnt really think i did until i asked my mom about ocd since one of my friends had it, and she sort of gave me a general explanation of it (shes studied phscology before, so i ask her about these things) and i didnt really realize it but some of the things i do are sort of in a routine or pattern, like i dip crackers/cookies in stuff in a certain way, fold my tissue a certain way before blowing my nose, and like putting my deoterant on before i put on my shirt and just a lot of small things like that. (if i dont do it, i keep thinking about it) and once i really read up on ocd, i realized i tend to also have intrusive and obsessive thoughts, like ‘oh if i dont do this im gonna go to hell’ or ‘if i dont say im grateful right now something bad is gonna happen’ and random thoughts like when my moms driving id just randomly think about me taking the whell and just crashing everything or a truck killing us or something.
its really annoying, like i cant enjoy watching a movie without these thoughts and im just really scared im going insane. im scared to tell my mom though because she might just tell me to shake it off, and also because then we’d have to see a phycologist and i dont want to put my mom through the work of finding one and all that money that goes into it, im sorry you had to read all this but i just want to know im not the only one with these thoughts and feelings
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That does sound a lot like OCD honey. I know you don’t really want to, but I think that telling your mum would probably be the best thing to do. I don’t know her but I’m guessing that if she’s studied psychology and has a friend with OCD, then she might be accepting of you.
If you don’t want to see a psychologist you could always try talking to a school counsellor, and you can always have a friend there with you if that thought is kinda daunting.
The best thing to do with OCD is intercept it and start getting help as soon as possible cause the longer you leave it, the worse it’s going to get.
And sweetheart, you are not the only one with these feeling don’t worry. Out of all the followers on this blog I can pretty much guarantee you that there is someone with the same thoughts as you.
Remember that you are not alone, we will always be here for you <3